Why don't you just stab me instead?
The pain couldn't be any worse.
I pull together the last drop of hope,
Just to get shot down once again.
Can't you just open your eyes and see,
That I'm everything you want and more.
I'll tear down the stars for you.
Just please pick me.
I would end this poem nicely but I would rather just say...
Fuck you.
Wednesday, September 23, 2009
Monday, September 21, 2009
Giving Up
You're breaking back in.
Everytime I try to let you go,
You appear here back once more.
I know I can never quit.
You're my addiction.
But he doesn't know that,
Which makes you my dirty little secret.
Everynight I hide away.
Giving up my breath for you to stay.
Hoping that you will lie awake with me.
Hoping that you will make a way with me.
You see I have a problem.
If I'm not what you need,
I'll become what you need.
I know I should just say goodbye.
But no longer can I lie to myself.
There's no breath to my life without you.
So what is a girl like me to do?
I'll tell you just what.
It's a little thing call overdosing.
And soon enough I'll be fast asleep.
Everytime I try to let you go,
You appear here back once more.
I know I can never quit.
You're my addiction.
But he doesn't know that,
Which makes you my dirty little secret.
Everynight I hide away.
Giving up my breath for you to stay.
Hoping that you will lie awake with me.
Hoping that you will make a way with me.
You see I have a problem.
If I'm not what you need,
I'll become what you need.
I know I should just say goodbye.
But no longer can I lie to myself.
There's no breath to my life without you.
So what is a girl like me to do?
I'll tell you just what.
It's a little thing call overdosing.
And soon enough I'll be fast asleep.
Sunday, September 20, 2009
Alpacas
Alpacas’ fur so soft and fluffly.
Their tails are extra puffy.
Pet them carefully, they might bite.
Seeming nice, but they’re really not polite.
Giggling noises while prancing around.
It may seem girly but that’s their sound.
Feed them lots of food,
And there will be no feuds.
You may think it’s love at first sight.
But before you know you’ll be in a fight.
It’s hard to gain friendship,
When the alpacas’ teeth have a grip.
Why can’t we be friends?
Just start over and make amends.
With a creature as cute as you,
My love for you can only be true.
Their tails are extra puffy.
Pet them carefully, they might bite.
Seeming nice, but they’re really not polite.
Giggling noises while prancing around.
It may seem girly but that’s their sound.
Feed them lots of food,
And there will be no feuds.
You may think it’s love at first sight.
But before you know you’ll be in a fight.
It’s hard to gain friendship,
When the alpacas’ teeth have a grip.
Why can’t we be friends?
Just start over and make amends.
With a creature as cute as you,
My love for you can only be true.
Friday, September 18, 2009
Unloved
Why don't you love me?
I tried so hard to be your everything.
This pain is eating me alive.
I'm no longer a person.
Just a worthless body,
While my mind is else where.
Love is the slowest way to die,
Because this hope will never leave.
I tried so hard to be your everything.
This pain is eating me alive.
I'm no longer a person.
Just a worthless body,
While my mind is else where.
Love is the slowest way to die,
Because this hope will never leave.
Tuesday, September 15, 2009
Simple Love
I still love you all the same.
Even though I only feel pain.
Though you're the one who's heart is slain,
I'm the one mourning in vain.
Ever since our fears have grown,
It seems cruelty is all that's shown.
Now that you're off on your own,
I'm feeling more and more alone.
Sorry if I'm cold,
But our love is put on hold.
Love never dies old.
Just was never truely told.
So not only did we end,
It seems we can't be friends.
But I could no long pertend,
That this simple love would transcend.
Even though I only feel pain.
Though you're the one who's heart is slain,
I'm the one mourning in vain.
Ever since our fears have grown,
It seems cruelty is all that's shown.
Now that you're off on your own,
I'm feeling more and more alone.
Sorry if I'm cold,
But our love is put on hold.
Love never dies old.
Just was never truely told.
So not only did we end,
It seems we can't be friends.
But I could no long pertend,
That this simple love would transcend.
Monday, September 14, 2009
Journey To Happiness
I was born to search for you.
The long trailed adventure,
For the key to all happiness.
Risking it all just to discover.
Even if I must feel the pain.
No more living on the safe side.
No longer can I spectate.
I can't bystand my own life.
Even if I get booed for trying.
It's time I stepped out to shine.
Putting my heart out for you.
Just so I can find happiness.
The long trailed adventure,
For the key to all happiness.
Risking it all just to discover.
Even if I must feel the pain.
No more living on the safe side.
No longer can I spectate.
I can't bystand my own life.
Even if I get booed for trying.
It's time I stepped out to shine.
Putting my heart out for you.
Just so I can find happiness.
Monday, September 7, 2009
Move On With Your Life
You could move on with your life and be alright.
But you choose to stay with me instead.
Which breaks my heart because I'll have to break yours soon.
Just please realize the truth and let me be free from you.
My eyes are telling you lies hoping you'll see the truth.
But it seems like I'm going to have to unveil the rest.
Just needing the strength to leave all doubts pertaing to you.
It's time you moved on with your life but without me in there too.
Please find yourself so I don't have to hold up a hard, cold mirror.
Reality is no longer better than our fantasies.
So why don't you just go back to sleep and picture you with me.
Because when you wake up I'll no longer be here in your arms.
But you choose to stay with me instead.
Which breaks my heart because I'll have to break yours soon.
Just please realize the truth and let me be free from you.
My eyes are telling you lies hoping you'll see the truth.
But it seems like I'm going to have to unveil the rest.
Just needing the strength to leave all doubts pertaing to you.
It's time you moved on with your life but without me in there too.
Please find yourself so I don't have to hold up a hard, cold mirror.
Reality is no longer better than our fantasies.
So why don't you just go back to sleep and picture you with me.
Because when you wake up I'll no longer be here in your arms.
Thursday, September 3, 2009
Deeper Inside
Do you even care?
Did you ever care?
I'm just another memeory fading.
Look deeper inside.
Only feelings of wrath.
You see this?
Or are you too busy in a mirror?
Your words cut me deeper than a razor.
These scars will last a lifetime.
Misery is overcoming any hope.
A dagger at my heart every time you appear.
Flashbacks of the night you left me here.
Time I face the facts I'm forced to follow.
You never loved me nor will you ever.
You're just another motive for my wrist slits.
Did you ever care?
I'm just another memeory fading.
Look deeper inside.
Only feelings of wrath.
You see this?
Or are you too busy in a mirror?
Your words cut me deeper than a razor.
These scars will last a lifetime.
Misery is overcoming any hope.
A dagger at my heart every time you appear.
Flashbacks of the night you left me here.
Time I face the facts I'm forced to follow.
You never loved me nor will you ever.
You're just another motive for my wrist slits.
Forever and Always
Pull me close to you.
Never let me go.
Just let me know,
You're here to stay,
So I can know my place.
I knew it all along,
That with you I belong.
Drilled into the back of my mind.
Shut you out because I'm not fine.
But here you are again, breaking back in.
You're all I've ever wanted.
Hoping I'm all you need.
I can be if only you wish.
Just say forever and always,
And I'll be there.
Never let me go.
Just let me know,
You're here to stay,
So I can know my place.
I knew it all along,
That with you I belong.
Drilled into the back of my mind.
Shut you out because I'm not fine.
But here you are again, breaking back in.
You're all I've ever wanted.
Hoping I'm all you need.
I can be if only you wish.
Just say forever and always,
And I'll be there.
Tuesday, August 25, 2009
Dreaming of You
It's that time of night again.
We wishper "goodnight".
Yet there's more to be said.
I lie weightless in bed.
Thinking you're right next to me.
But no, it's only a dream.
But was it only a dream,
When you kissed me in the street,
And replied "I love you too."?
My dreams may not seem present,
But that's why you are here.
Turning my fantasies into reality.
We wishper "goodnight".
Yet there's more to be said.
I lie weightless in bed.
Thinking you're right next to me.
But no, it's only a dream.
But was it only a dream,
When you kissed me in the street,
And replied "I love you too."?
My dreams may not seem present,
But that's why you are here.
Turning my fantasies into reality.
Friday, August 21, 2009
Final Words to You
Lost all the fire in my eyes.
Had no more drive for life.
Only friend was my knives.
Not even seeing, barely breathing.
Then you appeared from the shadows of the skies.
Picked me up from my pain.
Opened me up,
And slayed the wicked from my brain.
All I needed was for someone to care.
Now finally happiness I can gain.
Speechless I am of you.
No words come to mind,
Because I am in awe of what you do.
But one last thing I must say,
Thank you and I love you.
Had no more drive for life.
Only friend was my knives.
Not even seeing, barely breathing.
Then you appeared from the shadows of the skies.
Picked me up from my pain.
Opened me up,
And slayed the wicked from my brain.
All I needed was for someone to care.
Now finally happiness I can gain.
Speechless I am of you.
No words come to mind,
Because I am in awe of what you do.
But one last thing I must say,
Thank you and I love you.
Thursday, August 20, 2009
Broken Hearts
I walk this path night and day.
Either way it's all the same.
Your final words continually seep into my mind.
You claimed that you loved me,
But yet you're no where in sight.
A perfect picture painted in our minds.
Till I slipped and tore mine apart.
Now all you have to say is goodbye.
It may seem better off this way,
But inside we both know that's a lie.
But who here is the one to blame?
You stole my heart right away.
Now I only return the favor,
But in a different way you might say.
Stealing then shredding is my game.
If only I knew what I did to you.
Then maybe you'd be in my arms today.
But now it's your favorite time, 11:11.
For once I'll take your advice and wish,
Wish that you would stay.
Either way it's all the same.
Your final words continually seep into my mind.
You claimed that you loved me,
But yet you're no where in sight.
A perfect picture painted in our minds.
Till I slipped and tore mine apart.
Now all you have to say is goodbye.
It may seem better off this way,
But inside we both know that's a lie.
But who here is the one to blame?
You stole my heart right away.
Now I only return the favor,
But in a different way you might say.
Stealing then shredding is my game.
If only I knew what I did to you.
Then maybe you'd be in my arms today.
But now it's your favorite time, 11:11.
For once I'll take your advice and wish,
Wish that you would stay.
Tuesday, August 11, 2009
Billy Mays
Billy, Billy, Billy.
Your loud vioice brightens my day.
Many thought it was silly.
But to me it was brave.
My role model you were.
Envious of your confidence.
Until your death occured.
Infomertials shall never be the same.
The lives you've touched,
Are no longer change.
For cocaine is what you clutched.
Instead of mighty putty or oxy clean.
Your loud vioice brightens my day.
Many thought it was silly.
But to me it was brave.
My role model you were.
Envious of your confidence.
Until your death occured.
Infomertials shall never be the same.
The lives you've touched,
Are no longer change.
For cocaine is what you clutched.
Instead of mighty putty or oxy clean.