You think you know me.
Everything you think is wrong.
There's so much more to me.
If just opened your eyes and saw.
Who I am on the outside,
Can't even compare with my interior.
What you see isn't truly me.
There's so much more waiting to get out.
I'm afraid to let you see me.
For I don't want to disappoint you.
So me you shall never really see.
Unless you dig deep.
Sunday, May 31, 2009
Thursday, May 28, 2009
Fly Away
Fly away forever.
But is forever enough?
Who I am,
Can't exist here.
So to another place I must abode.
In a little creepy town,
Shall I dwell.
Where I can be my messed up self.
Dreaming up my creepy thoughts,
In my little creepy town.
But is forever enough?
Who I am,
Can't exist here.
So to another place I must abode.
In a little creepy town,
Shall I dwell.
Where I can be my messed up self.
Dreaming up my creepy thoughts,
In my little creepy town.
Wednesday, May 27, 2009
That Little Boy
Among the hungry I rest,
Waiting for someday to be fed.
Poor little children roam the streets,
Hoping for a day to beat this strife.
No income earned since no jobs we have.
Happiness rarely appears.
Yet somewhere in the slums of the streets,
A little boy showed kindness to me.
Old and hungry I may be,
But that day was extra tough.
For I was extremely ill,
On my d.e.a.t.h. cardboard box.
That boy found me shriveled up.
No food or shelter,
Just me sick as can be.
The young child stayed with me.
His presence alone filled my soul.
The food he brought me satisfied my hunger.
Clean water from him clenched my thirst.
My illness soon departed.
Never again I saw that little boy.
Some say he died of starvation.
If that is so,
That little boy gave his life to save me.
Waiting for someday to be fed.
Poor little children roam the streets,
Hoping for a day to beat this strife.
No income earned since no jobs we have.
Happiness rarely appears.
Yet somewhere in the slums of the streets,
A little boy showed kindness to me.
Old and hungry I may be,
But that day was extra tough.
For I was extremely ill,
On my d.e.a.t.h. cardboard box.
That boy found me shriveled up.
No food or shelter,
Just me sick as can be.
The young child stayed with me.
His presence alone filled my soul.
The food he brought me satisfied my hunger.
Clean water from him clenched my thirst.
My illness soon departed.
Never again I saw that little boy.
Some say he died of starvation.
If that is so,
That little boy gave his life to save me.
Tuesday, May 26, 2009
Time For Change
I am ready to be loved.
No more sorrow.
No more misery.
It's finally time for change.
Opening up to you.
Pouring out my soul.
This realization is overdue.
I'm sorry for not opening my door,
For not allowing you access.
But that is in the past.
Another lesson I learned.
It's time you came in.
No more sorrow.
No more misery.
It's finally time for change.
Opening up to you.
Pouring out my soul.
This realization is overdue.
I'm sorry for not opening my door,
For not allowing you access.
But that is in the past.
Another lesson I learned.
It's time you came in.
First Grade
Crayons and paper all we need.
Scribbles is all we know.
Barely reaching the table.
Here's my greeting from below.
Laughs and games.
Giggling all day.
Never knew a dilemma,
While we would play.
Friends were in plenty,
As happiness was in many.
Easily amused.
We'd even laugh at a penny.
Oh what fun we had,
As a young little pup.
Memories now forgotten,
Because we've moved up.
Scribbles is all we know.
Barely reaching the table.
Here's my greeting from below.
Laughs and games.
Giggling all day.
Never knew a dilemma,
While we would play.
Friends were in plenty,
As happiness was in many.
Easily amused.
We'd even laugh at a penny.
Oh what fun we had,
As a young little pup.
Memories now forgotten,
Because we've moved up.
Broken Together
I know you think of me when you're with her.
Your expressions tell all.
Then why stay beside her?
Move on to who you really want.
Your heart deserves better than her.
You were the leader of the broken.
But who will now lead you?
Finally broken down to my level.
This pain we share.
Forever more shall it be ours.
Welcome to the world of suffering.
Where love no longer exists.
But some how deep down here,
Us broken together,
Find love for each other.
Your expressions tell all.
Then why stay beside her?
Move on to who you really want.
Your heart deserves better than her.
You were the leader of the broken.
But who will now lead you?
Finally broken down to my level.
This pain we share.
Forever more shall it be ours.
Welcome to the world of suffering.
Where love no longer exists.
But some how deep down here,
Us broken together,
Find love for each other.
Monday, May 25, 2009
My Choice
This revaluation of mine,
Hurts more than your words.
Because of it,
I'll never hear those words again.
Even if they hurt,
I'll miss every one of them.
Bittersweet this choice of mine.
The best thing for me,
Is leaving you.
But also it's the hardest thing,
To be who I am.
You are who I am though.
What must I do to be happy?
Leaving would hurt so much.
But the pain you cause me would be gone.
This choice I need to make.
But I won't be selfish.
So I'll stick with you and be hurt.
Hurts more than your words.
Because of it,
I'll never hear those words again.
Even if they hurt,
I'll miss every one of them.
Bittersweet this choice of mine.
The best thing for me,
Is leaving you.
But also it's the hardest thing,
To be who I am.
You are who I am though.
What must I do to be happy?
Leaving would hurt so much.
But the pain you cause me would be gone.
This choice I need to make.
But I won't be selfish.
So I'll stick with you and be hurt.
Alive
I can feel you surrounding me.
Your love a constant presence.
Filling my empty soul.
Because of you,
I'm now alive.
Fighting back I may try.
But we both know I can't resist.
Over and over I fall for you.
Because I need to feel this way.
I'm now alive.
Searching for invincibility.
Showing me how to reach out.
Your strength is making me stronger.
Because I need to breathe.
I'm now alive.
Your love a constant presence.
Filling my empty soul.
Because of you,
I'm now alive.
Fighting back I may try.
But we both know I can't resist.
Over and over I fall for you.
Because I need to feel this way.
I'm now alive.
Searching for invincibility.
Showing me how to reach out.
Your strength is making me stronger.
Because I need to breathe.
I'm now alive.
Who I Am
Call me out,
So I remember who I am.
This body I dwell in,
Doesn't matter to you.
Only you can bring me back.
Guide me with your love.
Back to who I am.
So I remember who I am.
This body I dwell in,
Doesn't matter to you.
Only you can bring me back.
Guide me with your love.
Back to who I am.
Friday, May 22, 2009
Your World
You got everything you ever wanted.
Except me.
The world is yours,
But you gave it all up.
Just to have me.
Me, the worthless one.
But in your eyes,
Beauty was all you viewed.
The other part of your soul.
Which is why you chose me.
But by choosing me,
You still gained the whole world.
I'm am your world.
At least that's what you think.
Never again will I feel worthless.
Except me.
The world is yours,
But you gave it all up.
Just to have me.
Me, the worthless one.
But in your eyes,
Beauty was all you viewed.
The other part of your soul.
Which is why you chose me.
But by choosing me,
You still gained the whole world.
I'm am your world.
At least that's what you think.
Never again will I feel worthless.
Thursday, May 21, 2009
Forever To Myself
It's finally coming clear,
That you've moved way on.
And don't want me here.
Your life no longer includes me.
Sorrow all I felt at first.
My life incomplete.
All emotions were about to burst.
Feeling much self pity.
Then it hit me.
I can live without you.
I'm not afraid to be alone.
This realization was overdue.
Alone is how I want it.
Forever to myself.
Just the way I like it.
My heart is happy with it's self.
Now I realize,
This is how it should be.
Me facing this world alone.
But do I completely agree?
That you've moved way on.
And don't want me here.
Your life no longer includes me.
Sorrow all I felt at first.
My life incomplete.
All emotions were about to burst.
Feeling much self pity.
Then it hit me.
I can live without you.
I'm not afraid to be alone.
This realization was overdue.
Alone is how I want it.
Forever to myself.
Just the way I like it.
My heart is happy with it's self.
Now I realize,
This is how it should be.
Me facing this world alone.
But do I completely agree?
Wednesday, May 20, 2009
Silence
Commotion is unlikely.
Silence is needed.
Can't focus.
In one place,
But still in another.
Need quiet.
Thinking.
How impossible,
With this noise.
My happy place.
Only achieved.
With silence.
Silence is needed.
Can't focus.
In one place,
But still in another.
Need quiet.
Thinking.
How impossible,
With this noise.
My happy place.
Only achieved.
With silence.
The Day of No Tears
Troubles continue.
All hope is lost.
Close to suicide.
Cuts all down my wrist.
Yet no tears fall.
All pain is increased.
Welcomed to rock bottom.
It's over.
All alone.
Yet no tears fall.
Everyday.
Every night.
But why not today?
So many tears wasted,
But now they're needed.
Yet no tears fall.
Cried so much.
No love left.
So what next?
End it all.
Time to extinguish my misery.
Yet no tears fall.
All hope is lost.
Close to suicide.
Cuts all down my wrist.
Yet no tears fall.
All pain is increased.
Welcomed to rock bottom.
It's over.
All alone.
Yet no tears fall.
Everyday.
Every night.
But why not today?
So many tears wasted,
But now they're needed.
Yet no tears fall.
Cried so much.
No love left.
So what next?
End it all.
Time to extinguish my misery.
Yet no tears fall.