I Never Knew

I never knew.
I never knew anything going threw your head.
Why did you think this?
Why did you become this way?
I never knew.

Who am I?
Why would you ask me that?
You’re Eddie Black.
But that was never good enough for you.
What else do you want?
I never knew.

Hate was a strong word.
But you d her.
She gave you life,
But that didn’t stop the .
Why would you your own mother?
I never knew.

Today I knew.
Today I didn’t know who I was.
Today I d my own mother.
What happened?
I'll never know.

Maybe

I need a friend.
I wish you could be that friend.
The friend I need.
You were her.
But we lost each other.
Then we lost ourselves.
I want to grow back.
If it is even possible.
Maybe if you tried harder.
Maybe if I tried harder.
Maybe it could work.
Just maybe.

I Am

I am in pain yet satisfied.
I wonder what is wrong with me.
I hear the madness growing.
I see the scar forming.
I want more.
I am in pain yet satisfied.

I pretend nothing happened.
I feel the pain growing.
I touch the wounded area.
I worry someone will find out.
I cry for I am ashamed.
I am in pain yet satisfied.

I understand what I am doing is wrong.
I say this has to end.
I dream I will do better.
I try to reach my goal.
I hope I can conquer this.
I am in pain yet satisfied.

I Love You

As I stare down at my blank paper,
I wonder why I’m having so much trouble.
I’ve written tons of poems,
Just not about you.
Why is this so difficult?
Because no words can describe this feeling,
Besides “I love you.”

What You Wanted

I tried so hard.
Just to be what you wanted.
All Because I needed you.
But it looks like I'll never be good enough.
I'm sorry for letting you down.
I'll never be what you wanted.
But what about what I want?
Does that matter?
I've been wasting my time,
Just for you.
Now it's finely my time,
Time for you to be what I want.
Except you're already all I want.

Regrets

These scars will stay forever.
A constant reminder,
Of who I am,
Or who I was.
But I can be that person again.
Just walk out of my life.
Then you'll see.
The more regrets I'll make.

Belonging

I finally found where I belong,
But it doesn't feel right.
Maybe I don't want to belong.
Always alone.
Always lost.
Always me.
Nothing can tie me down.
Not even the sense of belonging.
I have to move on,
And continue to be alone,
Continue to be lost,
Continue to be me.

Our Secret Life

Our secret life.
You have your world.,
And I have mine.
But here we become one.
Together forever,
Always united,
Through our secret life.

Book Shelf

If I were a book,
I would want you to be my shelf.
To protect me.
To hold me.
To always be with me.
But I'm me,
Which isn't good enough for you
to do any of those things for me.
So I'll just dream for the day to come.
The day I'll be that book,
And you'll be my shelf.

Vulnerable

Always returning to you.
Even after your hurt.
No one else can compare.
You're vulnerable.
And someday you'll be mine.

Together Always

As the warm autumn breeze bristles us through the air,
We try to stay close and not be separated.
It's not possible though.
At some point we must go our distance.
Now's the time.
The wind picks up and we're off.
We both knew this had to be.
But then, as if a miracle, you're back by my side.
The world is ours now,
Together always.

The Missing Variable

It's not complete,
But what's missing?
The variable.
Time to solve.
Then I'll know.
Oh, Now I get it.
N=you.
You were missing,
But know you're found.
Just don't get lost again.

Broken

Finally built up,
The walls come tumbling down.
Nothing could break us,
But you did.
Your words.
Your actions.
Your thoughts.
They broke me down,
And I'll never be back up again.